November 9, 2013

There was a moment yesterday while washing dishes when I felt that everything was perfectly OK as it is.  But this was more than a feeling.  It was a momentary realization where I felt and SAW that this was the truth;  that everything was OK just as it is and that nothing had to be realized.  Funny, because this was a realization.  Certainly AFTER a realization nothing has to be realized.  My initial response was “is that it?” meaning: is that all there is to it?  So there was a truth noticed that quickly slipped away.  The noticing slipped away.  I can’t describe or convey this very well.  But in that moment it seemed so obvious and clear.  Like: “what was the problem anyway?”  Immediately after this I saw how, when some teachers express this truth and it sounds so lame, we have to imagine there is some deeply esoteric meaning in their words.  Even now as I contemplate this realization it seems too good to be true, too easy, and therefor impossible or untenable somehow.  I didn’t notice any sense of  “no self” in the realization, but the realization was just a glimpse of something. There was a “cleanness” and clarity.  Reminds me of my “peek behind the curtain” insight mentioned in my talk with Adyashanti.

Later: This insight expanded over the next few weeks into other insights and left me with the feeling that enlightenment is not such a big deal.  At the same time my movement toward knowing  the truth seems to have increased somehow.